Water.

Okay so I think that something's up with water? 

I don't know what exactly but it kinda follows me... 

It is like I have powers over it! It does what ever I want it to do.

Am I the only one this happens to? 

Does anyone else feel like one with the water? 

Like it obeys their every move?!

A Place Where I Belong.

I dreamed about the boy with the golden eyes last night again... Somehow I think he needs me as much as I need him!

I need him to guide me down the path to my destiny.

I can feel him guiding me to where I am meant to be. 

To a world where I feel I feel normal, not abnormal. 

A place where I belong. 

He thinks I am special as well.

I used to think only my Grandma and Chris would think I was special and only they would love me!

But when I look into his eyes, I feel loved. Like he was put in the Universe just for me.

It is like he is coming for me, to take me away to a place we could be together.

I can't wait to be with him. To stare into those golden eyes. To feel loved and special.

A Normal Childhood.

Sometimes I wish I just had a normal childhood.

A normal childhood would have been great. I guess that really is not possible when your parents both died when you were two.

I mean, it is not like I know anything else. But I see it in the media, the whole idea of the American family. The family I never had. 

Don't get me wrong it is not like I would take back the time spent with my Grandma. I love and miss my Grandma with all my heart but sometimes I felt like something was missing.

And now, it is like my life will never be normal.

I am having visions, I have people following me, I think because of this necklace. 

A normal life where I could hang out with my best friend Chris and only use my self defense as a means of exercise. 

Destiny and Fate.

Do you ever think about why your here or what brought you to this moment?

 Are there really no accidents as Gran believed?

Gran always told me this.. But at the moment I am really thinking about this more.

Was I meant to get this necklace? Am I supposed to be being followed?

Are these dreams leading me somewhere I am meant to be?

Is HE leading me to my destiny?

Is there really such thing as destiny or fate?

So many questions!! Aghhh off to sleep but I know I will be taken to this place again.

I will dream of him and his golden eyes!

Daydreams, Interrupted.

Aghhhhhhh.

Chris I love you but you interrupted my daydreaming. I was somewhere far away again. Being guided there by the boy with the golden eyes.

The Priestesses had come for me dressed in black cloaks and mantles. 

Slowly they escorted me to the sacred well where channeled rocks carried a stream of red water.

I want to know where these dreams are leading me. Where he is leading me?

I feel he is my destiny?! Is that weird.

Confusion in the Familiarity.

I saw a vision of myself in this incredible armor.

I felt the wings lift around me, like I was gliding on the air and then the boy with the golden eyes swept me up into his strong arms with his golden eyes blazing.

It all feels so real? Like he is guiding me to an unknown land, but the place is familiar... he is familiar.

Like I have known him forever. And like I have known this place he is taking me forever.

Nothing prepared me for the confusion I have felt since loosing Gran.

Without Chris and the boy with the golden eyes, I do not know where I would be.

Blogging and Anonymity

One thing I like about blogs is I can confide anything to you out there.

Normally I can only tell this to my bff, but somebody out there is listening and cares, it helps to get this stuff off my chest. To people that do not know me.

I'm afraid that the family CURSE is haunting me and I think I'm being followed.

Does anyone else know anything about curses? I need to look more into this but truthfully... I am a little scared!! Even with my amazing fighting techniques.

Oh Gran I have so much to talk to you about!!

What is real??

I just woke up from a very very real dream.

I Dreamt about him Again... I can feel his breath upon my neck. 

He must be real or how could I feel like this?

Oh, what I would give to have him next to me when I wake.

Does anyone long for something so bad..? but is he even real? Is this longing real?

I want to wake up to his golden eyes staring through me. Understanding everything about me.

Loosing Someone

At moments like this when someone you love and cherish moves on to their new journey. You've got to be strong. How I miss you Gran. Did you send me the boy with those flashing eyes to comfort me? I believe I am here for a purpose... But how will I know it's right without you? 

Think Edward Cullen and Jacob Black combined and times like a thousand!

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You'll find out all about me in the Last Princess and The Cup of Immortality, and there you'll meet the boy with the golden eyes.

Think Edward Cullen and Jacob Black combined and times like a thousand... YES HE IS THAT HOT!!

Remember, he is MY boy with the golden eyes!

Sight and Vision

Gran told me "the sight" runs in the family, but mine is the strongest of all.

I have so many questions for you if you are out there Gran!!

1) What is "the sight"?
2) Why is mine the strongest?
3) Is any of this connected to the necklace?
4) Is ANY of it to do with the boy with the GOLDEN EYES.

I NEED TO KNOW!!!!

Ghosts and Intuition.

Have you ever felt you were different? Like really different? Like you can do things or see things that you know other people can not...?

I have always felt this way.. since I was little..  Call it intuitive powers if you will but it has always been something beyond the ordinary.

It is probably why Chris and I are such good friends, I am different and she loves being different as well. She makes me feel less strange and more special, for having these strange gifts. Gran also never found it beyond the ordinary for me to have these powers, so I wish she was still here to talk to. Gran knew I could see ghosts... I always could since I was a little girl.

But is there more to these powers.. are they connected to my dreams.

Gran come back an explain what this curse was that you always spoke of, I miss you.

Night All.